The holidays bring up such deep emotion. While comfort and joy are in there, they are not alone within our thoughts. For many of us, fear and uncertainty are prominent. What will happen to us? Our loved ones? Struggling under a false label applied by LE looking to secure federal funding? Stuck on Community Custody, forced to live as a registrant knowing your life will never recover. Or those of us who maybe did make a mistake, have paid the price, and now can find no comfort in the world of SORNA. How can we re-establish our own comfort, and create joy for our future?
It’s been a conundrum, and for me personally, continues to be an issue. I push myself to advocate, to reach out, to strive farther – but it feels like such a constant battle, I so want to curl up into a ball and not get back up. The short, cold days of winter don’t help – they seem to push us to do just that – curl up in a ball and give up. Stay down, and under the thumb of those who whisper toxins in our head.
But I do like the phrases about change from Roy Bennett:
It reminds me that nothing will change unless I step up, and out of my comfort zone. It’s so easy to get complacent. Letting the world just revolve around my immediate needs; what’s for dinner, new project at work, clean the house… so little that actually makes any difference in the world. So little that HELPS anyone, including myself.
We were all forced from our comfort zones – it wasn’t our choosing – but here we are…so what’s it going to be? Curl up into a ball? Or start the change that needs to happen?
BE THE CHANGE.